On My Way
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When I'm driving alone, there often is a moment that I become emotional. It's all in the situation. The conditions for a contemplation are just perfect: the highway, speeding objects, and me. Just driving and no thinking, that's the way to go.
And so it is. I put on the radio and the sounds are influencing the state of my mind. Everything is under control. I feel calm. How proud I am today. In a few hours my website will go live. The past few months I have been busy modelling everything in order to find the best possible way to present myself. In fact, it was a search to the real me. Who am I, who do I think I am, and who would I like to be? The whole thing is set in motion now, and already I see myself more clearly, more precisely and more honestly than before.
For instance, the recording of the videos. I must admit that, when I saw and heard myself singing, I felt a bit disappointed. Yes, I know that I don't always have a realistic picture of myself, but nevertheless I thought it would be more professional. How old my voice sounds! What a serious look I have! Anyway, I put the videos on YouTube and on my own website, just because this is, who I am at present. So, this is what I wanted? Go for it then!
It makes me feel calm inside my head since I made this all come true. For a very long time it only existed in my imagination. It's a little step, compared to the things I always dreamt of, but a giant step, compared to the results, allready.
The cars on the highway resemble a quiet picture. I am a sensible driver now, I see every movement and take care of any changes that come on my way. What I achieved is not only a better image of myself, but I have become more stable. No more hurrying, no more impulsive overtaking, no more offences by other peoples' traffic behaviour, where as my own behaviour is also not that irreproachable. It's not relevant anymore. What's important are the things I do. Not over the top, but just simple, basic ideas.
Today I am choosing serenity, respect and safety. That's all, nothing more. I am approaching another car, and notice that I am overtaking without urge, feeding in and feeding out like a gentleman. When looking in my rear-view mirror, I imagine the other driver having the same attitude as me. It really could be so. Is it possible? Probably. I am moved, for I am aware of how beautiful the world can be, painfully beautiful. And, even better, this all happens on the day that my website is going live.
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Marlies
Lieve Huug wat mooi! In eerste instantie dacht ik dat je website over muziek ging, maar hij gaat over jou,....en over mij,.... en over iedereen! Wat mooi, zonder opsmuk, helemaal jezelf. Super! Ga je El toro rojo met je koor zingen? Lijkt me super leuk!
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Huug Verschuijl
Dank je wel voor deze mooie reactie! Huug
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Franca
Lieve Huug, ik heb met groot plezier rondgekeken en geluisterd op jouw site! Veel succes, ik vind 't erg leuk!!!!
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Huug Verschuijl
Ik voel me vereerd, dank je! Huug
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Mariska van Berkel
Wat een prachtige site en je ontroert mij met jouw roersels! Heel bijzonder mooi!
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Huug Verschuijl
Blij om te horen!
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Tineke
Wat een eer om dit zomaar te ontvangen.
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Huug Verschuijl
Alle lieve woorden voelen als een warme deken om mij heen! Dank jullie wel. Het is een enorme stimulans!
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Eddy L.
Beste Huug,
Heel mooi zoals je beschrijft, waar het uiteindelijk allemaal om draait; terug keren naar je zelf en de basis van alles; het genieten zit in kleine dingen. Vanzelfsprekendheden kunnen daardoor ineens intense belevenissen worden.
Blijf doorgaan..ook met jouw muziek.
Klasse om te horen hoe je op jouw eenvoudige wijze een "beleving" kunt creeren.
Ik kijk uit naar je volgende blog.
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Huug Verschuijl
Het is inderdaad waar ik voor ga. Je hebt gelijk: achter kleine dingen gaan vaak hele grote dingen schuil... dank je wel voor je warme reactie!
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Rikie
Heel mooi en ontroerend beschreven. Mooi dat je zo je gedachten en gevoelens kunt beschrijven en delen.
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Huug Verschuijl
:-)
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